today is going to be MY day

I am ready for today to be the day! When I wake up I am going to have a referral! Can someone let Russia know just in case they do not get this memo! Why now, why me? God only knows but I know it is here! I will let you know today, later when I wake up, it is 130am in Seattle it is 12:30 pm in Moscow so right now they are working for meeeeeeeee!
Thank goodness!
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Just waiting

Well all is quiet on the paperwork game. It looks like for now, I have no paperwork to do. I am WAITING! I have been waiting for almost 2 weeks now. Okay I know that is not a long time, but it took me over a year to get to this point, so it seems very very long to me. Also I choose an slightly older child age range just to slow the waiting down a bit. Well a lot, a baby can take more then a year, baby girl even longer, up to 2 almost as long. For some reason 3 years not so long. I really am not a patient person, not my strongest virtue by any means. For now, I wait. Up at 5 am to see if overnight I have gotten a email telling me I am invited to Russia to meet Baby! Ready to go now by the way, just in case you are wondering.

2 to 3

So I ranted a little on that last one. How I obsess.
What I have noticed is there are a lot of other families just like mine. 2 boys, bio and now adopting a little girl from Russia. How weird is that? I know of at least 3 other families just like me. Kind of interesting! I love my boys and if I had one of each sex I would still be wanting to adopt, maybe not so hot only a girl. Life did not go that way and I have 2 of the most amazing boys in the world and now I NEED the girl!
Jules+girl=girl world!

Game: Back on track

Well once again my paperwork is back in Russia! Okay party time, no wait do not send out the invitations yet-even though a copy was sent via PDF file the real thing may have some sort of issue. Pessimistic, yes, but since I have been down the "party road" before and that did not go over so well. Okay back to today. I know that I have mentioned the 3 yr old headed girl that got my eye, well breaking all the rules I asked my agency, for the third time to find her, find information and get her scope. How it started was at 11pm I checked the Adoption site for Russian's to see if her picture was still up and sure enough it was up, but there was a new picture, back up I am jumping ahead. I checked at 11 and then again at 12:30 am and the picture had changed. So I know for a fact that she is still there! Not spoken for and getting close to being open if not already open for US adoption. So I asked. I felt so ashamed to ask them but I HAD to. Had to know. Even is the answer is no, I can not have her, then at least I would Know and not hope, not pray for her for me. Since I am writing this for my daughter, if it is NOT her, if that girl is NOT mine then I will edit all of this out so my "real" daughter will not know how I longed for this other little girl. What I did not want to happen was get a referral accept it only to then see this girl and know I passed her by. I would have always wondered. So I am bad crazy girl. She is a needle in a hay stack! Even if they find her, now I know I could but that is only because I am a freak, they may not ever let her go to US family. She could have some issue that I am NOT willing to deal with. I think she is a caretaker favorite, she is loved, and well taken care of. I think she IS mine! And if she becomes yours I wish her and you all the love!

Pictures or no Pictures

Funny thing about Moscow vs St Petersburg, in Moscow we needed tons of pictures of us, in the family room, just the kids, just us plus 1 picture of the house and one of ss's room. But in Moscow they only wanted one picture of the family and tons of the house, every room in our house, and I have a big house. So all these pictures get notarized and they go inside the Home Study, this way the SW can tell Russia that the pictures are indeed my house and someone elses. Well in our case our SW did not include them with the HS for a few reasons, one the HS was 27 pages long and that was thinker then he could staple, 2 our pictures were to big, and 3 he just did not like the directions that he had to follow and he revolted when ever he could. So when we had to change the HS verbiages last week, not one person at our agency could remember if the pictures were in Russia, only that we did not have them now on the new copy of the HS! So I have been waiting to confirm that they do have them in Russia since Friday, now it is Monday 6 pm in Russia and still no word weather they have them or not. This would be a huge pain to redo, I have the pictures, but I would have to have HS guy redo a letter, re notarize and re go to Olympia with them, so I am hoping they are where they should be, sitting on a desk somewhere in Russia, in my "file". No news today is not good news!

Dazed and Confused

Well in my step forward step back, game I have been playing, the one I thought ended took anther turn. I wake up to a call from my Mom asking if I have read my email this morning? (Note: Yes I have given my Mom my password and she is checking my email too, for Russian information.) First I am blurry eyed trying to digest that I am still asleep at 7:50 when I need to be getting the kids up and ready for school 30 mins ago, 2 My Mom is going off about yet more incorrect paperwork from Russia and we needed to go to Olympia again! Call HS guy and get on the move ASAP! All of this in a very fuzzy cloud of morning goow! Well several hours later and lots of emails panic and tears later, it was a mistake and they should have what they are looking for in Russia at the office of the Agency. Since by the time I got the email it was 8am PST, 11am est and that is where my agency is, and after 9pm in Russia on a Friday Night, now I offer more money for them to drive to the agency in Russia to confirm that the pictures are in fact on the desk.but that does me no good. No one can recall them being there. I KNOW I sent them. So they told me to "relax", me and my psychotic Mom!

Documents back to Rusia

Okay Re did the documents, sent them to NH and now we are on our way back to Russia! So they should be in St Petersburg by Monday.
Back on track.
Missing her and need her home!

Overnight Again...

Well now I have overnighted my homestudy to NH again!! It should be there by 3 pm tomorrow, then off to Russia via DHL. They have email forms of these documents in Russia already.

Homestudy

Rewite done and aproved, love the internet and email! So I just need to get hard copies!
Slow delay but moving forward!

Step back

Home Study did not pass in Russia, something about a translation issue that needs to change because one word translate very poorly, so it has to be redone, AGAIN! Sucks! But better now then later! I am trying to get HS guy to fix it fast, all he has to do is cut and paste one paragraph plus change out weights, they very too.
Uhg!

New Game

Well I am now playing the long awaited "waiting" game. I thought I was playing this game before, but I was fooled! That last game was the paperwork game! LOL! So now I sit back and look pretty! SO now I wait until that one little girl that is perfect for me is ready and I get that LOOOOOOOOOOONG awaited email inviting me to St Petersburg Russia. Judges are back from the Summer break, Moscow is back to work so sit back hold on and enjoy the ride. Now we have the looming Holiday break in front of us like a brick wall, and yes I will try crashing thur! I have been hurt a lot on this ride, it is not by Walt Disney, not for the faint at heart. But I am hoping for a fastpass here!

Fear not

I have never heard this song, but I love the lyrics that I have read, and it feels appropriate: “Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, Your perfect love is casting out fear. And even when I’m caught in the middle of the storms of this life, I won’t turn back, I know You are near. And I will fear no evil for my God is with me. And if my God is with me, whom then shall I fear? Whom then shall I fear? Oh no, You never let go, through the calm and through the storm. Oh no, You never let go in every high and every low. Oh no, You never let go. Lord, You never let go of me.”
Much love ~

TAH DAH

I am in Russia!! Well my paperwork is! And that is an amazing feat. Next stop... nwa and us in Russia, hold on baby girl, Mommy and Daddy are coming!!!!!!!!!

W H E N?

DHL is my hero!

So after all this my documents lost and redone are now in Finland, after leaving Germany and on the way to RUSSIA!!
Happy days