Had to say NO

Wednesday October 11 at 6am we got a referral, and tonight Saturday, the 14th of October, after speaking to a IA MD we had to say no. I am so disappointed, glad we found out at home but sad none the less. the IA MD felt she was high risk. When we asked her at the end, is she fairly indicative of what I would expect, the IAMD said no she is below average and although several issues were common she had more and they looked worse. Her mental reliability, being a special needs child was in serious question. So we emailed the agency, their preferred way to comunicate, that we would have to pass on her.
SO maybe my next post will say something better!

Thank You GOD!!!

Here is the latest email from my agency!

Your documents have been accepted by the committee!!! Hurray! Now we wait while the committee looks for a referral. This is a big step forward!!!!!
I was going to call you, but it is 6:22 our time, a bit early where you are.

adding on

The Committee is reviewing my new documents is what I have learned from my agency, I had emailed her asking her if they had been submitted and she said they were reviewing them and we have no word yet. SO we wait.

All you need is love!

Well anther week went by and we did not get our referral. I did not hear at all from my agency last week, I would prefer an email saying "nothing new to report" as apposed to quiet. We had to do some additional documents for the committee, and I think they were being submitted today. So if they read them at the time of submission then I would expect some word, well today. Most likely they submit and then they review. I am hoping to travel soon! I pray to God daily for speed, for patients, for faith and for love for ALL the children of the world. I send love to my baby everyday, I think this poor child is alone and feels like she has no family who loves her and needs her, yet she does! She has a whole world that she does not even know is waiting for her. She does not not that her 9 yr old brother wants, no insists on being the first person to hug her and kiss her when she gets to America. She does not know all the love that she will get by becoming our little girl. She is SO loved!

Rainbows and Miracle

Life is God's Novel let him write it!!!

I love this, I read it and it keeps playing in my mind. More and more this is the message I get at every turn!

Today I sent off more paperwork that the committee wanted so they felt they could give us a miracles.

I need a miracle.

There was a rainbow today coming home, maybe...

God's timeline

So the BIG message I have gotten this week, is that God is in control not me. I have been following a blog of a Mother who just posted a count down to her daughters life threatening surgery. This little girl's Mother had made such peace with this event and even found peace, not in loosing her, but in comfort of God's arms, God's bigger plan, God's will. This little girl is still Fighting for her life, it is in God's hands now.
So bringing this to my life, God is in control. Everything is blessed. The adoption is so much slower then I thought it was. I am sadden and stressed by this and at times ready to give up, yet I always have the strength to move forward. I love her, just the idea, the dream of her, God will get her to me! God will make my dreams come true! He knows her, he found me for her and has tried to slow me down so I could get her, funny me I keep trying to go at my pace and I keep thinking she needs me, she needs to be home, NOW, but God is making me wait. I would like it better if he got her ready for me a little quicker, but then that is not the lessen I am to be learning from him.
For now I pray for her, pray that the committee will be satisfied and will send me to go to her, meet her, go to court for her and then bring her home and give her the love, the family and the life she is meant to live!

Hope is what gets us through

Deuteronomy 7:6 that says" Out of all the people on the face of the earth, the Lord has chosen you to be His special, treasured possession" and that you are the God of "Hope" filling all that trust in you with joy and peace so that we may overflow with "Hope" by the power of your Spirit(Romans 15:13).